Pre TRIAL

hi apparently im blogging from my college right now and considering that I have nothing to do, I might as well write something here right?

OK, now here we go, TRIAL is almost upon us yet not much preparation had been done and many had lost their concentration during the last minute. tensed and horrified by the fact that MARA is known for their high level of exam difficulty, many students have had their share of experience falling down under pressure like me for example.

- I start to give up, thinking that there is no use for me to study anymore. (its exactly like what i was during PMR)

- symptom of having a fever

- acceptance that your result is not going to be as excellent as other students

- lestless night thinking of the possibility that your upcoming result is not going to be up to your expectation

- headache

- confused and there are at times feeling a bit drowsy

seriously trial has slowly affected my life these days. there is not much that i can do except to endure every bit of the agonising session. definitely, i dont deny the fact that it baffles me how people manage to undergo this without going haywire like machines do when theyre being overused.

nevertheless, everyone had at least done their job in motivating me but none aspired me. sorry, im demotivated right now because i dont have the urge to study, to push myself to the limit. it's like that trial is nothing for me when actually, trial is also as important as the real thing, SPM. 

nothing much

a very good day !

today is going to be my last day staying in selangor because tomorrow ill be going back to terengganu. my father, he insisted me that hell be the one who sends me back to my college. well, i do agree with the idea considering the fact that my bag weights 2 tonnes of books.

speaking of books, i am still figuring out how long it will take me to finish revising all those reference books. i am indeed nervous without a doubt but it doesnt even act as catalyst to keep me studying at all. nothing can be my pushing factor, forcing me to study.

i would like try to open those books by 3 minutes later i find myself in front of the television or even sleeping. with this kind of pace, i ll never make it in time. sobs2. :,(

nevertheless, ill keep on pushing myself to the limit until i know that what ive done is enough for me to succeed in my spm later. insyaAllah. :)

late night, blogging

jauntily, i went out with my family just now. we went to a mall which i could not recall its name and i shopped for some new reference books. my dad kept on repeating of how it is so important for me to get 9A+ which i believe it is possible but an intense studying needs to be done.

nevertheless, i did also buy some clothes for myself which was wholly sponsored by my two sisters. they were happy to buy me all the things that i need and they even promise that theyll bring me again here tomorrow. hehe.

apart from that, i was thinking of studying as i have wasted 3 days before, procrastinating. it was indeed a shameful thing to do, considering that i only have 1 week to prepare myself for trial. seriously i am nervous but if i do believe that i can do it, insyaAllah anything is achievable. god almighty is really what i have left. i need to keep on praying and reciting come doa which would insyaAllah help me in the future exam.

wish for the best okay. TRIAL and after that SPM ! :))

Educating others and MYSELF

i don't know whether you still remember me or not but one thing for sure, im in dire need of your support right now ! well, in two weeks time or less ill be having this very important exam which is trial SPM. in its essence itself, trial have this meanest impact on me that i really can't have a normal day without even thinking of it. i am slightly worry and utterly nervous with this because i had not really finished studying but the clock's still ticking regardless whether im diligently studying or procrastinating. 

this is the mundane life of a malaysian student, really. they had to try their hardest to have this perfect result when actually what they are doing right now is really a waste of time. damn seriously ! example, if per say i want to be an actuarist when in its core itself, it doesnt have anything to do with chemistry at all or even physics but still we are forced to stay up late at night and revise all those hefty stuffs packed in one textbook. what a waste of time. i know, its a good thing but i envy those students who study in an international school where they have this choice in their very grasp. they can simply have the least subjects that they want or as many as they could depending on their capability. this is what i call true education where they learn for they want to become and not because they are forced to.

but still, im nobody. i can't simply go up to the principal and say what we are doing right now is a waste of time. i would be immediately expelled from the school which would be a scary nightmare for me. NO! well, but what i do know is that i still need to embrace what i have now and put it into one solemn effort that i will do my best in SPM. so do wish me the best. like seriously i need it.